one of those nights where i can't fall asleep... too many thoughts playing tag in my mind. sometimes i wish that i didn't need to sleep so that i could just spend those 7 uninterrupted hours erasing those words that keep floating around in the cloud above my brain.
the faint hum of my nearing-the-death-bed laptop and the random fridge noises are keeping me company. i'd love to be snuggling in bed with my mister [and i will soon enough... but i'll actually be facing outward, since i never seem to fall asleep while cuddling... unless it's a cuddle-sesh during a late-night flick.], but for now, i'm just grateful we're under the same roof again. he was on the opposite side of the country for the past few days, and oh, how i miss him when he's away. as cliche as it sounds, we've agreed that it's like half of us is missing when we're separated. so many things happen that we wish each other could've seen/heard/been there for. life is just better when we're together. i'm just constantly smitten by the guy, what can i say.
i'm in love with being a mama. a favorite of mine is just hugging my little jaden tightly as we slowly sway forward & back on our rocking chair together, gazing into each other's eyes. time stands still & i could easily sit and stare into his beautiful blue eyes for the rest of the day. he's becoming more & more independent, which makes me so proud... yet stricken at the same time. he's growing up. remember how i keep wanting to freeze time? or at least pocket all these moments, so i can relive them anytime i want? it's a miraculous thing, observing a practically-helpless being become capable... learning how to function & figure things out on their own. i've never been so fascinated by every facet of a human being - his glossy eyes, his ears, every line on his feet & hands.. the fact that he laughs and is playful and moves on his own - no batteries or charging needed. even just that he's here... and is my son... it's completely mind-boggling. didn't i just come home from a youth dance? how am i old enough to be a mom? i tell ya.
this week, since nick will be back on the east coast for a few days, jaden & i are going to hang out with my sisters and their kids. i'm so excited! it's been so long since we've had constant hang out + sleepovers for a few days straight. i sense lots of laughter, perfectly long games of boggle [since we never use the timer], drinking insane amounts of postum, talking until we lose our voices... ahhh. priceless.
i spent the other night at my parents' house, and boy, i sure do love them. i can always count on a good conversation, some jokes & laughs, and new smile-wrinkles imprinted on my face whenever i leave. they're some of my best friends. so grateful to have such a good relationship with them.
we played a few games with nick's family tonight [last night, i guess], and spent a good portion laughing hard at the funny comments & thoughts we were thinking-but-not-saying-but-knew-we-were-each-thinking-them... oh. so funny. i married into a great family. and shoot, laughing might be my favorite thing to do. i never get sick of doing it!
between reading my old journals, reading friends' blogs, and thinking about visits with friends [many of whom have been sweet enough to pay me a visit]... my heart just bursts with love for those wonderful people i've been blessed to know & be friends with. how did i get so lucky?
i'll end this little late night schpeel by saying that it really is the people & relationships in life that matter most. i couldn't ask for a better husband, son, family & friends to be surrounded with. my life is beautifully enriched because of the people in it.
xxoo.
